Nobody can do anything to change this Except You. So get your act together and do it. You think you are too good for AA Meetings? You think you are too special to admit that you are an alcoholic? I got news for you, you are not. You are no freakin better than the soccer mom who has too much wine 5 nights a week or the bum with a sign begging for change to buy more beer. You ARE an alcoholic, and if you won't admit that, then I may as well stop typing, because I am wasting my time and yours.
BUT....let's hope that you will put some consideration into what I just said. This isn't something you can fix or conquer or quit cold turkey by yourself. That's why AA was created. And no, it's not 7 old stinky guys sitting in a circle drinking dark coffee and whining that they can not drink. It's anywhere from 10-300 people in a room who are alcoholics, and who are supporting each other and doing everything they can to get and stay sober. From teachers, doctors, lawyers, the lady that bags your groceries to homeless people. Alcoholism does not discriminate. The meetings sometimes are funny, you will make new friends who are sober and willing to help you be sober. They are uplifting, they are serious, it's the real deal. People just like you, saying "I can not do this alone"
You can either decide to straighten out, and get some help or you can go crawl in a hole with a bottle and die (cuz eventually, that's what will happen to you, if you don't kill someone else driving drunk first and end up in prison) and stop torturing the people that love you most, or you can be a woman and admit that you need help, and Go get it. Google "AA meetings" and the area you live in. They have them all over, all times of the day, every day. You will be surprised.
*Ugh, this question really raised my blood pressure, my husband is recovering from alcoholism. I left him because of it at one point and moved across the country. I was so sick of his crap, I didn't care if he died at that point, all I could do was make life better for me and my kids, he wasn't interested in anything but a bottle. Him going to an AA meeting one night out of the blue saved his life. He met a guy, who actually took him in, got him into a state detox program and rehab for about 45 days, completely free. If he hadn't gone to that meeting, we wouldn't be together right now. I'd have already divorced him and gotten full custody.
Go to AA.
AA Steps
1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Reprinted from the book Alcoholics Anonymous (The Big Book)
with permission of A.A. World Services, Inc.
AA Traditions
1. Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends upon A.A. unity.
2. For our group purpose there is but one ultimate authority - a loving God as He may express Himself in our group conscience. Our leaders are but trusted servants; they do not govern.
3. The only requirement for A.A. membership is a desire to stop drinking.
4. Each group should be autonomous except in matters affecting other groups or A.A. as a whole.
5. Each group has but one primary purpose-to carry its message to the alcoholic who still suffers.
6. An A.A. group ought never endorse, finance
or lend the A.A. name to any related facility or outside enterprise, lest problems of money, property and prestige divert us from our primary purpose.
7. Every A.A. group ought to be fully self-supporting, declining outside contributions.
8. Alcoholics Anonymous should remain forever nonprofessional, but our service centers may employ special workers.
9. A.A., as such, ought never be organized; but we may create service boards or committees directly responsible to those they serve.
10. Alcoholics Anonymous has no opinion on outside issues; hence the A.A. name ought never be drawn into public controversy.
11. Our public relations policy is based on attraction rather than promotion; we need always maintain personal anonymity at the level of press, radio and films.
12. Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.