Jbcanfi74
2007-04-06 14:25:08 UTC
Why do I cry every night? Why do I put myself through this time after time? I’m dying inside very quickly and I don’t see an escape but one, which I don’t want to commit but sometimes I feel is the only way out of this pain. I feel useless and worthless to anyone and everything around. What am I going to do? I want to run and hide but at the same time I don’t want to go anywhere. Nothing is helping me! I can’t make him see that with every drink he takes it’s killing me more and more inside. Our relationship is being effected by it seriously and I seem to be the only one that cares. If I say something it’s turned around to be my fault or I’m just a *****. I can’t live this way anymore. I would end it all right now if it wasn’t for some being greatly affected by my death. I don’t want to watch him kill himself from the drinking. I can’t stop him and I don’t have any support here helping me. They just turn their backs pretending nothing is happening. I am left to pick up the pieces alone. If I had known marriage would be this tough, I would have stayed a Girlfriend. Where do I go from here? How do I make him see that he’s hurting me very badly by doing this all the time? Couples shouldn’t let the other one hurt and if they do they should correct the issue if possible correct? This pain is horrible. Maybe I will go see gram. If only…. Someone, Anyone could help me through this.